Happy Fun Cog

I don't know that "conduced" is really a word, but there you go.

I'm realizing that one of the problems I'm having with getting this blog back up and going is that I feel like there's so much on my mind that I feel overwhelmed by the idea of actually trying to get it down on paper/screen. And naturally, me being me, my approach to being overwhelmed is just avoid it altogether.

One thing I've been trying to teach myself lately is how to break things down into smaller parts and just start taking things one piece at a time, because apparently that's the only way I'm going to get things done. This sort of approach, of course, is filed under "Shit That You've Known You Should Do For Years But Never Did;" and that file is in turn filed under "Ways To Invalidate Your Thoughts/Feelings Because God Forbid You Should Allow Yourself To Feel A Sense Of Pride And/Or Accomplishment."

I'm also getting high-speed internet connection at my new place soon, which will make it infinitely easier to keep blogging on a regular basis.

It's weird. I've moved from the apartment where I lived for the past 5+ years; not only that, but I moved out of the city and into the burbs (where strip malls reign supreme) so for the first time since I graduated from college, I'm driving to and from work. While I'm excited about the possibilities of having a car (summer road trips to Vermont and Maine stand out in my mind), there are so many implications to this move that I'm having trouble processing it. I'll miss the neighborhood and people I left behind, but I had to leave them behind to take the next step in my life. I felt like I was living in a state of suspended animation, doing the same thing, day in day out. It was leading to deep depression, the kind of depression where I spent all my time in my room (though to be fair, the fact that my roomies turned the TV room into a temple of reality TV played a big role in my hermetic lifestyle as well).

So now, I find myself needing to reconfigure and redefine many areas of my life. It's exciting, but also overwhelming. My hope is that, just as I'll try to do with this blog, that I'll be able to tackle this 'new life' thing one piece at a time and that, hopefully, some time further down the road, I'll look back and see this as a starting point for something that makes me feel that life is worth living.